This experiment of living my life as if I had only one year to live (I’m down to 9 months - yikes!) (see last blog) has got me thinking about this quote a lot. It is attributed to Epictetus, a philosopher born a slave who lived in Greece around the year 100 AD.
My first thought was: I would be a woman who wears flowy pants.
Yep. I then said that to myself and started wearing flowy pants more often. Easy.
But what’s the deeper angle on that? The intention coincides with how I am choosing to live this “last” year. I want to be an easy going, self-assured woman who knows my gifts while being humble in my shortcomings. I want to be patient and wise and yet wild and fueled by the flow of life.
I would be a woman standing tall in my integrity.
And this is where I shamelessly plug Rolfing. Rolfing helps me be who I would be and it helps me do what I have to do to get there. When you are down or maybe just at the end of your day or week at your desk job or maybe just worn out from the pace of life these days, your shoulders are hunched; you’re not letting others in. Not other people, not positive emotions, not even light. The heart is tucked away inside a constricted chest and ribcage. Now I am NOT saying that standing tall, erect and open will fix major depression. But it can start to open a conversation between your body and the sun - the source of our energy. It can begin to lead you onto a path of self awareness that can shift your overall outlook on life as well as your openness to opportunity. Every time I get Rolfed, I stand taller and more ready to take on the world. I am more able to say ‘YES’ to everything that comes my way. I feel more confident in my structure and my functionality. I feel more confident in my humanity!
I like asking myself this question now and again. Especially during these “last” few months. If I only have these last few months of this year to live - do I really want to spend my time doing this, whatever ‘this’ is...
Who would I be in this “last” year to live? I am going to do what I have to do.